Below are the 4 most recent journal entries.

	2006.12.13  18.11 new year's resolutions In this upcoming year there are a couple things I want to get accomplished: 1. Kick my smoking habit for good. 2. Get in better physical shape. 3. Increase my monetary flow and improve my overall financial situation. 4. Grow mentally, spirtually and emotionally. 5. Put women at the back of my mind. I've decided next year is gonna be my year. A year where I worry about me and my family. I've decide I'm gonna go after what I want in my life and fuck everyone else. I don't mean to say I'm giving up on humanity, I just decided I need to get my shit together and next year is the year to do it. By the end of the next year I've decided my life is gonna be where I want it. I know it's gonna be hard, but all I've got to say is bring it on!! I wish all of you luck with your new year's resolutions and I hope you hae a good upcoming year. Mood: determined

	2006.09.22  16.18 cod of conduct It is said that one should not hesitate to correct himself when he has made a mistake. If he corrects himself without the least bit of delay, his mistakes will quickly disappear. But when he tries to cover up a mistake, it will become all the more unbecoming and painful. When words that one should not use slip out, if one will speak his mind clearly and quickly, these words will have no effect and he will not be obstructed by worry. If there is, however, someone who blames a person for such a thing, one should be prepared to say something like, "I have explained the reason for my careless speech. There is nothing else to be done if you will not listen to reason. Since I said it unwittingly, it should be the same as if you didn't hear it. No one can evade blame." And one should never talk about people or secret matters. Furthermore, one should only speak according to how he judges his listener's feelings. Hagakure (In the shadow of leaves) Mood: content Music: none

	2006.09.18  10.07 rainy days It's another boring Monday morning and I'm at work(again). Don't get me wrong, I love my job. It's just that my work week runs from Thursday to Monday, so I'll be glad when this day is over. They sky is overcast and gray, and it's raining(again). It's just making this day dreary. While I was on my way to work I started thinking about everything that's happened over the past couple years. Ever since my dad died(he passed wasy in 2001), I've noticed the world has gotten steadily worse. If it isn't natural disasters, it's weapons of mass destruction and war in Iraq. Plus, we are being led by a President that can't even grasp the concept of correct grammar? Please. Sometimes I wonder what's happening to this world and it's people. Which brings me to another point, with everything bad happening it's hard to see any good aroung the corner. It seems evertime you start to come up, someone or something brings you down. They say the sun always shines after the rain, but how can it if it always rains. I'm going to my martial arts class tonight. It will be the first time in a week. I'm sure Sensei is going to be real happy to see me. I have to tell him tonight that in 10 days I will be leaving for a month to get up to Lexington to work(something I've been putting off for a long time.) So, if you don't here from me for awhile it means I'm in traction. We're about to go on this real hardcore training session before the next camping trip and I'm not going to be there for it, which sucks, but it's something that's out of my control. Well, I have to get back to being a productive member of American society. Mood: drained Music: none

	2006.09.17  15.52 driving skills So, I was on my way to work today and I was at a red light preparing to make a left turn onto a highway, The light turns green and I pull out waiting for the cars going straight across the highway. The car in front on the other side of the highway just sits there like an idiot. I could've made 50 left turns before he went. That got me thinking, people can't drive nowadays. Especially in Indiana. The BMV in Indiana will give anybody a license. It's amazing how many people I see everyday that can't even do simple tasks like negotiating a four way stop or merge on a highway. Did these people even read the driver's manual before getting their license? It just amazes me how much the intelligence level in this country has dropped in the past decade. People need to stop worrying about stupid shit like money, power, gossip, etc., and need to focus on becoming better people; physically, emotionally, and spiritually. "Mastering others is strength, Mastering yourself makes you fearless" Lao Tzu - Tao Te Ching Mood: tired Music: None